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how to start this off..

damn fucking pissed today...

stupid cca, so fucking long, 9-5. like, wtf la, working hours. and on weeknd somemore. even my dad doesnt work so much la, wtf.

then somemore go there only get scolded. coz i was playing "bad" la. i admit, i normally play quite lousy, but today exceptionally bad becoz i was sleepy la...today co was in two parts, so i should describe it in parts.

1: before lunch, rehersal with band. i was falling asleep. becoz. 1. i was fucking hungry la. 2. 8 hours of sleep on a weekend is not enough for me. 10 hrs is the min requirement. so of couse ill be falling asleep la, no energy to do anythin. so i was lagging, and when the conductor start couting down i was like, huh huh? and then when, like 3 secs in then i'll start playing.

2: after lunch, sectionals. i wasnt even full la. thanks to, oh wait im not sure hu. combination of herman and melvin i guess. they made me go down late, and i coudnt get second helping. wtf. than after that herman was drilling me like fuck la...then my fingers were damn pain and like, no jing shen liao...but didnt voice out coz it would have been ignored...some people are just like that...sigh...then i couldnt play preoerly...im not superman, wad do they expect...im noe the rest of them damn zai la, got so much stamina, but IM NOT THEM right?

*sigh*

then after that after debrief, melvin come and shoot the bull at me la...talk all that crap...i can talk my way out of everything if i wanted to...but that would have been a waste of breath and i wouldnt benefit...

still damn bloody pissed....someone help...

wenjie @ 8:53 PM